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I Do Not Know

Sun, 03 Jul 2005 05:33:15 GMT

I just dont know anymore
i think im happy all day and then the night comes and im all alone. both physically and emotionally. i love people and they love me back but we are still all seperate people. and that seperation is lonely. i need people around me to be happy. i guess thats not so bad but it is and i dont know why. the feeling that something is wrong is a very pungent smell that seems to waft in the background to hit you hard when you are alone. i dont get it. i dont get anything. why do i think this way. why am i ok with it. I DONT KNOW IF IM SAD, HAPPY, CONFUSED, UPSETT, I DONT KNOW ANYTHING AND THAT FREAKS ME OUT. i guess thats why i do what i do. but i dont even know what that is. where does all my time go. where does all my money go. i used to be skinny. i miss that. whatever im gonna go do something pointless.

The universe is all about balance
The Doddster

life

Tue, 10 May 2005 03:14:37 GMT

have you everh had one of those days? where you feel like you have no purpose to even be around but still you yearn to be. ever fell rejected, replaced, offenden, or ignored. yeah ive been there

i have a prom to go to this week, a tattoo to get the day after, a father visiting next week and im not even sure i want him too anymore, everybody surrounding me seems to be telling me im not good enough with their eyes. i just dont know what to do anymore. i want to be good enough. i think im good enough. perhaps im just naive. i dont know. and that pisses me off even more

the universe is all about balance
the Doddster

Gay Bar

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 02:29:14 GMT

Well how many people knew that day as the day became the night and i completly forgot what i was trying to say.
This is a funny site:http://www.rathergood.com/gaybar/
Im writing to molly kromberg and yeah i know she sounds like a dancer and thats hot.
Grammer is for sissys
well we won our lacrosse game today final score: Hartland Eagles-19, Romulus Eagles-1 and yeah this is where the famous Dodd's run took place. Ask one of the Hartland D-poles about it.

Im done now and i shall be signing out

The Universe is all about balance.
The Doddster

Tue, 26 Apr 2005 03:28:57 GMT

<3 mollyk